Better? I Don't Know

Things I guess are better in a way. I still feel like I don't belong here, I have made some acquaintances but no real connections yet. I went home this past weekend to see my friends and it seems like their worlds are just standing in place. I am happy I just have no one to talk to during the day. Maybe the few people I see in class and the ones online but that's about it. I still love my classes and I am in Student Government, I am trying to stay active so I don't have time to sit here and wonder when will I have someone to hang out with everyday. Their is one girl here that I love hanging out with but she is always busy. So that leaves me to find something to do with my time. I do homework, watch TV and go on the computer. That's what my day consits of. I sometimes have a meeting I need to go to and of course class. I just wish I could be happy all the time like I use to be. Maybe that will happen someday.

I dont know what to do

I am sitting here in my room. No one has bothered to knock on my door to ask me hey want to go to dinner or what are you up to? I don't think that I should have to out myself out there just to be shot down. I can't stand it! Today for the first time in awhile I actually ate lunch with another human bean. I could not remember for the life of me when I last did that. If I told you I have having an awsome time here at college I would have to say as of now no I am not having fun. I like my classes they are super fun but other then that I have nothing else to look forward to during the day I go to class, come back to my room and sit on the computer. I would love to go out and make friends but thats not who I am. I am shy and I don't want to be shot down when I put myslef out there. I am afraid of oh what if they don't like me? I really don't know what to do and I would love to go back home.

This is my room

I made a video of what my room looks like. It was easier then tons of pictures. Enjoy!

Better Friends not Roommates

Everything was going well...Well no it was not. I am moving out of my current room on Monday. Me and my roommate do not get along living together. We have totally different personalities, morals and everything else. We are better being friends if that is possible. She is not a bad person she is very nice but we just don't click. So I have been under the stress of should I move out or should I stay and things were not getting better so I put the ball in motion. I know I should have told her first before I went and talked to the Residence Director but I didn't. So she said that we could switch but there is a room freeze right now because that is what they do every year at this time to make sure everyone has a room. So Monday is when we can do it and I just want to get it done. I am moving just next door and I am friends with the girls there and one of them is better friends with my roommate so it is going to be alright.

Other then that little bump I am doing alright. I miss my friends and my bed and my animals but I did see them last week and that was good. My friends seem to be falling apart without me which is a let down because things are going on and I am not there to help them sort them out. A good thing is that they will learn to cope and deal with the problems when I am not there.

My homework load is not as bad as I thought it would be *knocks on wood* I have learned how to use my time and I know when to get things done. I think I am doing alright.

I still have not been to church while I have been here. I went on Sunday back home but that is the first time I went in bout a month. I would like to go but I need a ride. My friend said that she would go to church with me in a few weeks and she has a car so that is good. But I don't want to wait two weeks. We will see what happens.

High Rise Life is HOT!

I have been here for 15 days. So in 15 days I have not seen my friends, parents, pets, my bed..and other things that have to do with Scotia. Somethings I have learned is that climbing 4 flight of stairs to get to the 3rd floor sucks! Climbing hills to get to every class means leaving my room about 20mins or earlier to get there on time. The food here is good. I enjoy eating salad as a part of my meal every single day. My classes are really not diffucult at all. I do some homework but I don't really have alot. I love my floor, the people on my floor are cool. My roomate and I are toatally diffrent but we have somethings in common.

I got a job in the our Hall being a Night Host. This means a few time a week I sit and watch the front desk from 11:45 pm-3 am. We keep the hall safe while you sleep. That means some money on my pocket. HE HE HE.

Oh yeah and my title means I live on the third floor of a concret building. No AC, it is hot..thats all I have to say.